be esteemed ? At first I thought I would never get through this book,
Truefaced Experience. The pain/fear of being real and then what ?
A blessing for me was that these guys who wrote this book really knew.
They knew that there was a very good reason the masks had gone up.
They knew that those reasons had not changed. What would need to change was the way we had once looked at those reasons. Not exactly
a change that can occur over night. If one was not even aware of there
being masks on that would probably be the starting place.
I was aware of masks. I was aware of masks on top of masks. I am
aware still of masks that need to come off. That is why I am sharing what I have learned about the Truefaced Experience.
Exactly what is my agenda. I was thinking about that the other day.
Someone I cared about had a problem and I thought perhaps I should help. Wanting to "help" is a red flag for me. I am a compulsive helper.
It is a constant source of remorse to me that I find myself busy doing stuff . Yet, my agenda, yes, I know what that should be. My calling, my particular thing I ought to do in the body of Christ. I know what that is.
It has a lot to do with the book called Truefaced Experience. Also another book called Hiding From Love. It has to do with realizing years ago something was amiss in my relationship with God and reading the story of Adam and Eve in the Garden over and over. It has something to do with just knowing that what our LORD really wants is an intimate relationship with us. It has something to do with realizing that my inability to have lasting relationships with people was showing me something was a miss. It has something to do with beginning to understand that I have many hiding styles.
For someone who has been on a journey for so long and has not yet reached her destination it might sound silly that I want to encourage others in their trip. Yet, I think it will only sound silly to those who have not started the journey. Those that have begun, know, it is a lonely trip and company or a little encouragement is always welcome.
Anyway, I think this is my agenda. To be an encourager to others who are attempting to enter the room titled "trusting God" rather than continue to spend all their time in a room known as "believing God". It is a very hard thing to do. No one will be able to make it easier for anyone. However if they have read Truefaced Experience or Hiding From Love and they happen on this blog they might find just a little encouragement. They might offer alittle encouragement too. (That would be nice.) Regardless,
I journal almost everyday and no one but me knows what is there.
Sometimes I am inspired as I write and I wonder is this just for me or should I share it ?
So I'll blog it.
posted by Diane B at
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It's funny how we were taught to journal, but some of us (me), never did. It was only because I didn't see a purpose for it. I knew what I was thinking, why should I write it down when I'm the only one who was going to read it. Blogging has given me the best of both. Journaling which is a great relief off my mind because it lets me see things that happened to me (good and bad) in a whole nother light. It also gave me a purpose to journal so that others might be encouraged or given understanding in their own lives by what I've dealt with or are dealing with in my own. I love you Mom!
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