Truefaced

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

MY GOD HE IS A LION ! HE IS NOT TAME !

Where was the Ark of the covenant during those days in 2 Kings ? The people had been dubbed into believing it was okay to worship the God they believed had delivered them from Egypt by worshipping a golden calf. Had they lost the Ark ? I think so. Where was the presence of the LORD ? How could they reach Him. Of course, long ago back when their forefathers realized God was real, they requested Moses do the talking to Him for them. Why was that ? I know the answer as most of you who are attempting this Truefaced Experience journey know. He is not tame !

Hebrews 4:16 Let us therefore come boldly before His throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

Oh that boldly part. I can turn around and not go in and no one will ever know the difference. I and He alone are aware of my sins. If I don't go in I can pretend that I did . I can do better. I won't judge my brother this week LORD, I promise. You can look at my face. I will think only loving thoughts while I am around him, I promise. I don't really have to go in do I ? That part about the vail being ripped from the top to the bottom really didn't mean that I can go in now, did it ? Didn't it mean that my pastor can go in now ? Didn't it mean that just special people can go in now ?
Did it mean that you want me to go in ?

Hebrews 9 seems to be all about my answer. Hebrews 9:14 How much more shall the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered himself without spot to God, purge your conscience from dead works to serve the living God ?

You do realize don't you that Jesus is The Way, The Truth and The Life and no man comes to the Father but through Him. As hard as it is, let us keep trying to be real . Better is one day in His courts, better is one day in His house than a thousand else where. I can not spend another day pretending. I have wasted so many days already. I am afraid. Better that I stand here afraid than back up. Godly sorrow waves over me. Jesus protect me from the liar who would want me to believe any lie. Jesus speak truth to my heart. Jesus You are the way. I look to what You did while You were here on earth. What clues did You give me ? Jesus You are the life. You are all I need. You are all I need. You are all I need.

Monday, November 28, 2005

IS MY GOD A GOLDEN CALF ?
How did it happen ? In 2 Kings two extremes were present.
A people who thought they knew God and a people who knew Him.
For those people who thought they knew God but in fact did not , God steadfastly tried to bring them around. They were taught to believe, God likes to be worshiped. God likes sacrifices.
Do those two things and you will be blessed.
Matt. 16:13-20 Jesus has a talk with His disciples about church.
To me it is plainly said that I personally must have ,not flesh and blood but Jesus' father in heaven reveal to me , who Jesus is.
The gifts of the Spirit are vital to this truth and must be allowed to exist. The correct way that these gifts should operate should be learned.
The problem is so many times that the gifts of the Spirit are given to an unteachable people. How that happens, I am not sure . I can only report what I know from personal experience. My willingness to receive the gifts came first and then understanding of how to use these gifts .I am still learning and seeking for understanding. Perhaps our Father in heaven compares it to our learning to ride a bicycle. Someone could teach you about riding a bike but you never will learn how to balance and successfully ride a bike until you have one to learn on.
So perhaps the gifts of the Holy Spirit are given to us in earnest.

FREEDOM IS OUR SONG. FOR HE HAS COME TO SET THE CAPTIVES FREE. NO MORE ARE WE TO LOOK TO MAN TO TELL US ABOUT OUR GOD.
MAY WE EXPECT OUR LORD TO SPEAK TO OUR HEARTS DAILY . MAY WE REPENT OF OUR FALSE IMAGE OF HIM. MAY OUR HEARTS BE OPEN TO TRUTH. MAY OUR HEARTS BE OPEN TO THE WAY. MAY OUR HEARTS BE OPEN TO LIFE. MAY WE SEE ALL THAT JESUS DID FOR US AND ACCEPT IT ALL AS THE FREE GIFT IT WAS INTENDED TO BE. MAY HE WASH US OF OUR SINS & INIQUITIES. MAY WE TRUST HIM FOR A GIFT OF RIGHTEOUSNESS. MAY WE GO AND SIN NO MORE.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

DOING IT RIGHT or TRUSTING TO BE RIGHT !
Let me make it clear that I do not encourage ignorance. I read the Bible to learn what is RIGHT. I do not just assume that because I am trusting God now, to do what is right that I can ignore what He has written out. However I find myself relying on my knowledge rather than His Spirit to perform what I have read.
This grieves me , as I believe it ought, thus I know a fruit of repentance will at some time be seen.
How do I know if it is my idea to do what is right or the Spirit leading me to trust Him to do what is right ? You see both rooms, (pleasing God & trusting God) require doing.
What I have learned to do is expect confirmation to come and confirm to me somehow (I do not decide how) that "yes, this is the Spirit leading you to do this." If it does not come,(the confirmation) I am learning to not do it.
This could be embarrassing if I was a man pleaser.
I told you I would present the opportunity to my children when they came to visit to partake of the Lord's Supper with me. It seemed like a good idea to me. However ,the Holy Spirit never confirmed it. So I did not do it.
I think there will be a time that I and my children do this sacrament together and I will be ready when I see the Spirit leading me to this.
The Holy Spirit is doing a lot in the lives of my family right now.
It is my hope to not quench or hinder the Holy Spirit in any way.
He is the authority in my life. He is the One I want to trust and obey.

Thursday, November 24, 2005

TRUST & OBEY ,for there is no other way to be happy in Jesus,
but to trust & obey. Young readers may have not ever heard that song .
It was more than just a catchy phrase to sing. I think it holds true as I know of countless times trying to be happy in Jesus doing it another way.
Never did work. At the bottom line most of those times I was trying to see if I couldn't please the people around me and please Jesus at the same time. Although the world would think it was admirable , I know it really stunk !
Gehazi & leprosy. II Kings 5 tells of a story about a guy who was a pleaser. His life was given to serve his master but when the opportunity came to see what his real desires were it became all to evident. He went after the money. Even though he knew it was not his master's wish. He thought somehow he could go on serving his master and have what he wanted to. He got caught pleasing himself !
When all I want to do is please others, I wonder where my desire really is ? Years ago I held onto the scripture that said "Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart." While I have been learning to delight myself in the LORD the desires of my heart have been changing. No longer is the man pleasing desire binding me that would keep me from obeying Him. At least I see myself able to do things today that I could not do years ago and it is a delight to realize that it is true, "we are transformed by the renewing of our minds."
Ask my family if they would like to partake of the bread & grape juice our Lord told us "to do this in remembrance of Him" ? Their answers are immaterial to the fact that I have obeyed. Their choices to partake and be thankful with me for our most precious gift , SALVATION from our punishment of sin, is merely a personal choice. My greatest hope & joy would be to know that they have indeed received this gift from our savior and would not fail to acknowledge it. How glad I am to know that the prison warden called man pleasing , has no control over me today. I am ready to serve the LORD with all my heart . I have been set free.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

PLEASING & OBEYING are they the same thing ?
My parents taught me to please them. It was called obeying but it was not really obeying as I have learned the difference between the two words.
To please someone your intent is for their interest.
To obey you are submitting to their authority.
For those of us who are reading the Truefaced Experience book we are realizing the difference between these two words hold apart two separate worlds for us. Will we go on pleasing God , or will we begin to start trusting God ?
So that I am not going to fast for some of you, let me break this down just a little.
Who is the authority in our lives ? Is it God ? Then who should we obey ?
It is God.
If we do what He has laid out for us to do [HOLY BIBLE] with idea we will please Him if we do this, are we trusting ? If we obey His word with faith in His authority ,NOW we are trusting.
I could go on about how I feel God has been gracious to me in convincing me that He is not only my authority but that He is an authority that loves me. This helps tremendously when you approach an invisible God (to our eyes) that you want to obey .
Same way with our children I would think. Aren't the ones who are convinced that their parents love them more able to obey them ?

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

SEEK YE FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you. Matt 6:33
Are we really ready for this kind of life style ?
Just last week I heard of a wonderful miracle that God was performing on a daily basis to provide for the needs of His people.(Six people that I was aware of these miracles helping.) So that His kingdom can come ? So that His will can be done on earth as it is in heaven ? My educated answer is "Yes !" Did I get excited about the miracles ? "Yes !"
"What does this mean ? Are you trying to confirm to me this person is a prophet , LORD ?" I asked.
Then as His Word was being taught to me , I felt that such an important truth is being over looked.
If we are seeking the Kingdom of God and His righteousness ,miracles just might be on the agenda that day. If we also receive a Word of Knowledge from Him that says ,"Tell the people to look at this , because it is for My Glory to be revealed." Then maybe we are to say something. (I think the person who shared with me was suppose to. However, I didn't go blabing it around. I have been holding it in my heart and seeking and waiting for His word to come about it. I did tell that I know of some miracles happening . It is just very exciting.)

Monday, November 14, 2005

BEING READY FOR MIRACLES to happen.
Being able to know if you are ready for miracles to happen.
Being able to know how to get ready for miracles to happen.
Being able to accept God's way and His time table for them to happen.
All of the above are important key elements for the Truefaced Christian.

Part of Matt 22:12 tells of a man who was dumbfounded when he was questioned as to why he was not prepared for a wedding feast.

Let us be aware of our need and the needs of others . Let us know how to be ready for whatever the Father may have in His will for us to do today. Help us not slow down if He makes it known that a miracle is to happen.
Mostly help us not be so busy doing Christian stuff that we failed to be prepared for the wedding feast as we ought.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

A SWEET SMELL

yes, a sweet smell is what I long to be.
How about you ? Can you imagine that what you do is a sweet smell ?
I think it can be so . I think that our lives are a smell to our King.

I think our choices affect our smell. I think our worship to our LORD and
King are a smell. I think what we do , everything, from washing the dog to cleaning the church, can be done as unto the LORD , and be worship.
I do think that it can be a worship that stinks. When I live my life to please Him. It stinks ! When I live my life in faith, trusting Him, it smells better.
Smells have a way of just easing up slowly. When you pass a skunk on the road as you drive by, oh yes, you know there is a skunk close by. For awhile you can still tell there was a skunk but slowly the smell goes away.
That is how I imagine it is with my leaving the room of pleasing God and entering the room of trusting God. Not an over night change . Just a constant change for the better as I go along.

A PLACE LARGER THAN A FOOTBALL STADIUM FULL OF
WORSHIPPERS. WORSHIPPING OUR LORD AND KING . SAYING "BLESSING,AND HONOUR,AND GLORY,AND POWER, BE UNTO THE LAMB FOR EVER AND EVER.

Will my choice to LOVE the LORD my God with all my heart, all my soul, all my mind and all my strength , have an eternal value to our KING ?

It might. It is my soul that wonders such things. My soul wants me to be practical. I remind my soul that I have decided to follow JESUS whether it feels that it is practical or not. There are those who do a lot of things to convince themselves that following JESUS is a practical thing to do. That you will be glad you did it. Just try it ! I think they have entered the room of pleasing God and have not yet found that there is another room to go into. In the room of trusting God , I have found the keys of the KINGDOM.
Thus, righteousness , peace and joy in the HOLY GHOST sound like a good sales pitch for those I see concerned about their souls. However, I am afraid that if I offer it to them , "as a sales pitch" they are liable to come back on me when they find out it is not exactly what they have expected.

I found what I found because I always believed that what was written in the BIBLE applied to me. I always thought that my story (life) is written down somewhere in a book that atleast ONE BEING, (THREE IN ONE ) will read. I have always thought the words in the BIBLE were meant to be helpful to me in my story. That if Martha was told, " there is really only one thing necessary, really only one." It had a meaning for me.

That the less I did myself , and the more I did in the strength the LORD gives me, the better it would smell. (This last statement is not included in the "I have always believed.") I guess this is something I began to believe as I began to "trust God " that what He said to Martha, about Mary, applied to me. Because it takes His strength to put that other stuff aside.
It takes His strength to take off the masks and be real. It takes receiving what He is willing to do . It takes believing that it is okay to not "please Him " but trust Him.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Surrender & Love
With all our heart, soul , mind & strength is how we are to love the LORD our God, and teach our children to do the same . Is my understanding of Deut 6: 4-7
When I give Him my heart, I give Him my soul, I give Him my mind and give Him my strength . It is my hope that He then will cut the flesh off of them. Why does He need to do that ? Well, because the way I have loved Him in the past, with my soul, mind, heart and strength really stinks. I think there is some reference to that when the Bible speaks of God's opinion of self-righteousness.
It is that fleshly attempt to please Him that stinks up the place every time.
However, I almost became convinced there would never be a time to express my love to Him. Then I saw it, even as I am offering my flesh to Him , while we go through the book Truefaced Experience together.

Lord,I give You my heart when I believe that You love me ,even when I do not understand what is going on.
I chose in my heart to say, "Blessed be Your name."

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Gilgal a place where the flesh was cut off.
It is our flesh that wants to hide from God. The Adamic nature ,rightly named as many of you know, Adam & Eve's choice in the garden of Eden
to eat of the forbidden fruit resulted in what we now know to be our flesh.
Deut. 30:6 And the LORD thy God will circumcise thine heart, and the heart of thy seed, to love the LORD thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, that thou mayest live.
For us today , it may mean, come out from hiding. Do not hide from God's Love. Accept He loves you , even when you make mistakes. Accept that He loves you, even when your flesh is still obviously not all cut off. Let Him love you even before you can start doing better.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Giving myself time to change.
Romans 12:2 speaks of being transformed by the renewing of our minds.
This is not an overnight process. Standing in the room of trusting God ....
......................I wait.
Did you know that the word wait is not always a do nothing word?
In fact I was told that in Isaiah 40:31 wait upon the LORD is an action word. Similar to being used in this sentence : "The waitress did a very good job waiting on our table." Wait in that ref means being ready to do
whatever the LORD would want. How do I find out what He wants ?
By reading His word........Then of course my mind will be renewed.....
I'll change.........in time.........I'll stand in this room called trusting God.

Are there elder brothers in your group ? Are you one ?

Oh it's horrible to be one and know you shouldn't. Pray for the elder brother to come into an understanding of His grace. They are right you know, it is good that they have been doing what the Father wanted them to do all along. They didn't need to wear a mask. They have always done what the Father has wanted them to do...........Oh, but they never had a party.
It is so sad................And now when you are ready to have a party......
they don't like it..............it is so sad...........Just go ahead.......go on in and enjoy the party...........maybe they'll come in later..............


Dancing With My Father God In Fields of Grace.............................(even the elder brother ? )
Yeah.......those who are waiting to change.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. Psa 121:1

It would be so easy to work on my problem now and clean it up for God.
However, it was those attempts that caused me to fall before.
It would be so easy to ignore what I felt the Holy Spirit was saying to me.
OH yes, I can remember doing that before.
I need His help not to HELP !
I need His help to not believe those condensing lies, "Oh, since He is going to deal with this for you , you can ignore it."

Repentance means that I am going to start doing something else now.
To know what that is exactly , I will have to be not ignoring the problem, but at the same time, be waiting for the Holy Spirit to give me repentance. You must replace something with something. I guess I should say, "When one thing leaves, something else will take it's place."
It will happen. I can choose to be mindful of my need to replace this wrong attitude I have towards people in authority . In particular, people whose choices about money issues , will affect my life. I can learn to say,
(giving the truth in love) ," I do not like your choices. Your choices will affect my life." Instead of secretly hiding my feelings.

I will need the creator of the heavens and earth to help me speak the truth in love. I will need the creator of all things to be on my side. I will need to remember He is for me . Thank-you JESUS. It is such a delight to belong to YOU !

Friday, November 04, 2005

Hiding Style exposed. The great thing about Truefaced Experience is the stories of others who have gone before you. Their stories did not always have any similarity to my own, yet they said to me, "I dared to believe that the God we serve will still love me even if I tell Him about this."
Another book Hiding From Love , describes several common hiding styles that people use . For years now I have gone over the different ways people might use to hide from God's love and asked the Holy Spirit to show me if they applied to my life.
Also I have asked Him for years, what is my problem with money management ? I have been just trying not to hide from Him when I messed up again. Trying to believe that His love never changes, that nothing , even my bad accounting practices, will not separate me from His love.
An event different from finding out I was overdrawn at the bank, (again), happened in which I knew very well that I had hidden anger and resentful feelings about. Although I was trying to be more open and honest about those feelings , and believe God would still love me. Suddenly, I found out that the situation I was angry about had not been the way I had imagined it at all. It was kind of shocking really. To know that you had been angry at God for years about something, then decide to be honest about it, then to find out what you were angry about may not have been like you thought. PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE . Have you heard that term before ?
This is what Hiding From Love has to say about that style of hiding.
Passive -aggressive individuals tend to be highly resentful of others' supposed control over them, but they don't directly confront them. Instead, they show their anger in indirect ways, such as procrastination, sarcastic humor, "forgetfulness," and intentional inefficiency.
Somehow, I just know this has something to do with my poor money management problems. Boldly I have to admit that the way my parents handled their money choices has caused an anger issue in me. Indirectly that anger is pointed towards God, but of course I do not want it to be.
The recommended steps for changing this style of hiding is : Learn direct, face-to-face confrontation and appropriate expression of anger.
I am not sure what the appropriate expression is ,at this point I am just glad that it has been graciously revealed to me what I have been doing all this time. It is so wonderful to know that I belong to a loving God.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

The Lord is on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me ? Psa 118:6

Isn't it great to know the Lord is on your side ?
Remember when you were a kid and you just wanted someone to be your side ?
Someone that would agree with you ?
Today, if you agree with the Lord, He is on your side.
Awesome isn't it ?

Beloved,believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God:
because many false prophets are gone out into the world. Hereby know ye the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesseth not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is not of God: and this is that [spirit] of antichrist, whereof ye have heard that it should come; and even now already is it in the world. Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.
I John 4: 1-4

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Rev 12:11 And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto death. The him that the word is refering to here is Satan. No matter what your stand is on end time events I think all Christians should be aware that our adversary the devil, is walking around seeking whom he may devour. I Peter 5:8 tells us to be sober, be vigilant.
Ever since I began this blog I have been wondering if the readers are aware that the eniemy is not going to want them to go through with the Truefaced Experience. To be mature enough to realize your need for a closer relationship with Jesus , thus reading this book means to me that certainly you must have some experience. Yet I wonder, what kind of a group are you in, or who are you around. Lord willing they are able to give you the love and support that you need as you are doing the best you can to be real. However, for the dear heart who has a well meaning friend who is not supportive, hang in there ! How nice it would be if everyone could understand us or just love us, the way that Jesus does.
It won't happen for you, I am almost certain. Even Jesus did not have a circle of friends who said the right things all the time.
Think of His episode with Peter. In Matt 16:23 Jesus had to tell him, "you are not savouring the things that be of God." Paraphased . Also, while teaching Jesus gave a parable that we refer to as the prodical son parable.
For those who know this parable I would like to offer you the idea that the parable has been named wrongly. It is the elder brother parable. Most assuredly there is going to be one, for every prodical before he goes into the party his father has invited him into. You may even find yourself being the elder brother. How awful is that ? Pretty awful. Hang in there.
I was faced with this, and my well meaning friend said," stop being like that." Right. In whose strength was she sugesting I do that in. Now she may have meant to say, "Seek the LORD until you find Him. Ask Him to give you grace to help you repent of this attitude. "
However, she didn't. But that doesn't matter now, because I did seek Him and I did find Him and fortuneately for me, I had the DVD at my home that the guy gives that talk in at the beginning of the classes.
You can buy that for yourselves people. I would almost recomend it.
Although it seems like an extravagance of money. However, when I listened to it again. Sitting there this time knowing what I knew about myself. So much more than the first time I had heard it. When he came to that part about where the people were beginning to open up to each other and say things like, "I forgot my kids birthday, and I don't even have a regular prayer time." The other guy says,"Is that the best you got ?" And then he goes on and tells him his stuff.
Well, I tend to respond alot like the elder brother sometimes, and sometimes I get alittle carried away with myself and think I know better than everyone one else, and sometimes I even wonder if Satan isn't trying to get his bluff in on me and get me to say the wrong things.
It is the best I got. Go ahead and take it in to Jesus. He is still going to love you . He is still going to be glad to hear the truth. Remember, He REJOICES in the truth. Yes, He is going to tell you how to repent.
He uses the Bible. You know that. Yet how often do we get to see what He told us about in action ? People willing to accept us with our sins, wash our feet as it were, with a faith in His forgiveness. Not to often.
Dare to become that kind of person. Go to Him first and let Him know the real you. Let Him assure you that if you were sitting there at that table before His crusification , He would come and wash your feet.
Would you let Him ? If the answer is no. Go back and read Matt 16:23 again. See sometimes a rebuke is good. Sometimes it is the wake up call we need so we get on track again. Even if the person didn't say it the way you would of liked to heard it. Take it to Him. He'll reword it for you.